Is That Alright?
Am I capable of writing something from the heart? I don’t know! It’s been too long since I have said anything sincere. This room smells like shit! What is that? :S
I realized I have not changed a bit since I was 20? I’m still the same “selfish and eccentric” :P that’s what I was told, but no I don’t think I’m selfish. I’m just trying to be happy. I have been searching for something for so long but it seems that it is out of reach. Do you blame me for giving up? Or have you already given up with me?
Let me tell u a lil story that happened a while back to someone I consider my hero :P
One dark night she found herself in ecstasy. Everything was still.
There was no soul, no breath, no one to wake her
She questioned herself: is this imaginary or is this real? For it was unusual and unclear
He asked her "what is your name?"
She answered: You found me so you tell me, and in Time you will know me
He laughed and said "my name I will not tell, until you release your fear and open your shell"
She gently smiled and said: In Time I will tell, but what he did not know is that she was in hell!
Her endurance could not stay still.
Her mind asked her "what is happening to you? You seem to have lost control!"
She could not answer. She was yearning for more ;)
As he left, a moment of silence had struck her…
Days passed, and months went by while she was burning with desire
Her heart cried "Put Out this Fire! Put Out this Fire!"
Eighteen months went by and their love lifted them higher
She asked him: Am I yours and are you mine?
He answered "yes my love, for there is no other I desire"
With her spirit she embraced him
Then she closed her eyes to witness tomorrow
One condemned evening he came to her with fainted horror
He told her "we must separate my love it is against my power"
She thought to herself: What merciless soul wants us to be apart, this must be a dreadful dream, and I must wake up from this terror
This girl needs an ending to her aching tale.
O glorious God her life has grown pale
Have you any clue of the pain she is going through?
What could have been that separated those two?
Memorable Days
Jan 4th 1981 baby H met world :)
August 2nd 1990 stupid invasion!!! I was young but it was the worst time of my life.
1990 memorized my first English song. I think it was Madonna's Like a Prayer :S
1992 discovered I can play the piano!
1994 first McDonalds opened in Kuwait (queue at the drive-thru was 15000 people and seven miles long!)
1998 bought my first car
Summer 2001 fell in love for the first time
Summer 2002 saw the Mona Lisa in Paris ( the real deal)
July 23rd 2003 first time I saw Mariah perform on stage! was even more exciting than falling in love lol I kid I kid :P
Summer 2004 I graduated from Kuwait University. It was the best time of my life :) It's where I met my 3 favorite ppl in the whole world :D
Coquette,
Hanan, and
2005 Kuwaiti women gained their right to vote. Yes ppl we exist! and thank you for noticing.
July 4th 2005 got My first Real job at NBK :D
Jan 2006 Sheik Jaber Alsabah passed away :( may God rest his soul
Summer 2006 went to New York City. It has been a dream of mine :)
and yet there's more to come...
Hot or Not!
I finally cut my hair. I didn’t wanna go short so I decided to do it like Aniston’s “sexy straight” just the way I like it ;) I know some of you are probably thinking: that’s what my hair looked like before! Well, I guess I really like it that way or maybe I’m just used to it, or maybe I’m just “blah”. I was going to add a before n after picture, but I don’t think that’s a good idea :P
Now let me ask you a question: Wouldn’t this car look amazing if I was driving it? :P That’s an awesome kick-ass car I really like it! I know it’s not a Ferrari n most girls wouldn’t consider driving it, but there’s something about it that’s really hot. I think it’s ruggedness or maybe it’s just me :P
What do you think about girls driving big cars? Is it hot or not?
Things I did 4 Weeks Ago & Things I'm doing now
4 Weeks ago:
1. Wandered around the streets of New York City. I almost went insane when I finally reached Times Square and Broadway!
2. Went to Mariah Carey’s concert “The Adventures of Mimi” at Madison Square Garden… That’s when I really went crazy! I LOOOOVE her. Oh before that I had lunch at Serendipity. Was the best burger ever!
3. Took a picture with the Naked Cowboy lol
4. Took the NBC studio tour. It was ok
5. A cultural day at the Metropolitan, St. Paul’s cathedral, and New York’s Public Library. Well mostly I spent my day at the gift shops :P
6. Shopping Shopping and Shopping :D
7. Took the Sex and the City tour. It was so much fun.
8. A fairy to the Statue of Liberty. I have always wanted to meet the Lady in person
9. Saw Chicago the Broadway musical Only coz Usher was performing. He’s hot hot hot! He has the cutest smile ever! And the cutest dimples.
10. A walk at Central Park. It was soooo beautiful
11. Another day at Central Park only to see Meryl Streep perform
12. Saying good-bye to Manhattan - Back to reality!
ahhh Usher :D
best burger ever!
Times Square
Present time:
1. wandered around jam3eyat el nuzha
2. listened to my ipod
3. a lil pervert took a picture of me
4. saw Jay Leno on Showtime but now "service is currently scrambled"
5. No Comment!
6. the only shopping I do here is grocery
7. asta'3for allah
8. eljazeera el'7athra, no?
9. alembara6oora! REALLY?
10. ahhhhhh
11. ummmmm
12.
To Cut or Not to Cut
Whose do am I doing? I will cut my hair according to the most voted hairdo, so chose wisely. Remember we’re talking hair not face :P
Super cute
Stylish
Sexy straight just the way I like it
Killing time before fu6or
I miss having breakfast (toasted bagels with cream cheese) ohhhhhh it’s divine. I hate saying that but I’m kindda over Ramadan. It was fun at first, but now I’m getting really tired… I think that’s kindda the point :P. I just miss going out for lunch with my friends or family or even just hang out at a coffee place with my brother and sister in law. What I really like about this month is the fact that we start work at 10 :D I’m sure when it’s over I’m going to miss it :(
Krispy Baby I'm Waiting
There’s nothing better than KrispyKreme’s original glazed doughnuts!
Can't hardly wait
Is your mouth watering? I know mine is ;)
The Open Door
Finally it’s out! Evanescence The Open Door album. It’s amazing
One of my favorites:
Sweet Sacrifice (listen to audio)
It's true, we're all a little insane but it’s so clearnow that I'm unchained
fear is only in our minds
taking over all the time
fear is only in our minds but its taking over all the time
you poor sweet innocent thing
dry your eyes and testify
you know you live to break me- don't deny sweet sacrifice
One day I'm gonna forget your name
and one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain
you poor sweet innocent thing
dry your eyes and testify
and oh you love to hate me don't you, honey? I'm your sacrifice.
[I dream in darkness I sleep to die
erase the silence erase my life
our burning ashes blacken the day
a world of nothingness blow me away]
do you wonder why you hate?
are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?
you poor sweet innocent thing
dry your eyes and testify
you know you live to break me- don't deny sweet sacrificeYou guys should listen to
Like you and
Snow White Queen
I am so tired I just wanna relax... Be alone for a while n think of nothing or no one. Why can't I just take the day off without feeling guilty? I'm so stressed and pressured it's killing me. It's funny how my job demands us (the staff) to bottle up our feelings. Is this even healthy? Can we work 55 hours a week acting all happy even though we are going insane? This eventually will lead to anger and believe me no one likes an angry person who bitches alot about his/her job!
I just need to learn to swallow my feelings. Lets just hope one day I don't choke!
